The first friend I described my “character” concept to looked at me side-eyed and referenced the book Sybil.
After starting this blog—where I share tales of thoughts conflicting in my mind, or appearing without any conscious intent on my part—someone asked me if I might…possibly?…have Dissociative Identity Disorder.
Multiple personalities? Who. Me?
I mentioned this to another friend, whose immediate response was, “don’t we all?”
I laughed, deciding that, yes, we all have moments where our thoughts collide within our minds or where we refer to experiences in almost a third-person way; we use language to create a bit of space from which to consider actions or thoughts we may have doubts about.
“I wasn’t myself.”
“I’m of two minds about that.”
“It was out of character.”
Psychology gives us the Id, the Ego and the Superego, which certainly seem like different characters to me. Folks who write about them aren’t met with side-eyed Sybil comments.
So, I’m going to keep talking about life, and things that happen, through the lens of persona or character or Sybil, simply because I’m having fun with it. Plus the characters are more interesting and have less power when I give them names.
Well, except maybe, for The Judge.
Real ‘Sybil’ Admits Multiple Personalities Were Fake, NPR Morning Edition, Lynn Neary, 10/20/11